Jobless and Still Seeking

Sorry I did not post this past Thursday. This is why I am posting now. I will again post on Friday or Saturday when Alex is away.

The reason I did not post past week is that when I would usually have been able to make a post I was in quite the bad mood. I have been working so hard to apply for jobs as of late and nothing as come out of it. I am making small steps towards progress (because the steps I have been making don't even qualify as progress) but nothing has come to me yet. I have had a few place over the past week that have forwarded my information further on in the company. That is good, but I have yet to hear back from those places again. I had a place call me last week and get my hopes up, only to dash them yesterday by calling back to tell me that the position had already started the interview process when he phoned me as so they would not be putting my name forward for interviews because they had some "very strong candidates that seem just great". Lovely thing to bring up when you are telling someone they can't be interviewed for said job. He did tell me they would contact me in the future if they have anything available I may qualify for. The man did seem nice, but not quite up-to-date on things, so hopefully he will get in touch with me in the future.

My main stumbling block seems to be my need for a visa. Places do not want to spend the time and energy on waiting for and working towards the whole visa thing. It has been the reason multiple times that I have not been considered for job postings. Lame but understandable I suppose. I would be angry if I was as qualified for a job as someone from another country and then the job was given tot he other person. I can understand why they say that the job will go to the UK resident if we are equally qualified. However, sometimes I feel like that is just an excuse and that they go with less qualified people so they do not have to do the whole visa thing. I, of course, have no way of actually knowing that. It certainly is my pessimistic assumption, but I can honestly see why a company would do that as well. Either way, I remain jobless and still seeking. 

(I said the name of the title in my blog! Is that like when people say the name of the title in a film? I think it should count for something really...)

I have recently started expanding on the jobs for which I apply. I was sticking to things in the social work and mental health realm. Not only therapy jobs, but anything management, case management, or direct care that targets children and families (this is what I qualify to get a visa for). I have decided to expand this over the past week to HR positions as well. That still is therapy related in a way and has to do with management. I realistically have no clue (now that I think of it) if I can get a visa for that. All I know is that I am only applying for those kinds of positions in big name companies - because they get people over on visas all the time. 

In reality, I am not picky about what I get a job doing. I just want one so that I can stay for awhile. Something to get my foot in the door and familiar with the way mental health agencies and policies work in this country.

I do hope I find one soon.

All of the rejection (and even the lack there of seeing as a lot of companies do not bother to contact you if they are not interested...even if I contact them to inquire about it) does get me down from time to time. It is a real bummer. I spend hours multiple days a week in front of the computer and on my phone, searching and contacting jobs. I tailor each cover letter and CV to the specific posting, based on the job description and personal profile. I thought initially it would be a good idea to go and speak to people in person. It has not gone over well because nowhere takes paper applications or seems to care to speak to me. It is all facelessly online. I am reduced to a collection of emailed information that gets filed away or deleted. Its rough to think about.

I am not all gloom and doom about it. I do lots of prying about it. I know that ultimately, when the time is right, I will find the job for me. It is out there, I just have not found it yet. I do not believe I have missed out on my opportunity because I am doing all I can to find and apply for jobs. I am looking, I just have not found it yet. The time will come and the job that will help to shape my future will make an appearance when the time is right. All happens for a reason, I just do not know the specifics yet. I have faith. I will. 

Until then, I continue to search and stay as positive as possible. It comes and goes in waves. Today I am in a pretty good place about it, despite rejections yesterday and today. Yesterday I had a moment of panic and sorrow. It is to be expected. I am not used to a lot of rejection and am in this strange limbo world I am not used to. I feel useless and lazy at times because I am not being productive and helping others like I was made to do.