Ventilation

So I am starting to get a bit tired of being back in school. Do not get me wrong, I love my program and am learning a lot of really important things....but I really want to have a regular, real people, grown up life now. I feel like I have been ready for quite a long time and it gets old doing so much at once. I like to be busy and I like being in a learning environment. But I want a regular routine and regular life. i want to go to work every day and have evenings and weekends free to use as my own. I hate constantly having projects hanging over my head and the constant nagging of the endless amount of other school related things I could be working on at any given moment instead of whatever I have chosen to do. 

I cannot wait to graduate and start that next chapter of my life. I look forward to interviewing and applying for jobs in big cites, moving to a new town, and starting an adult life with a job as a therapist. I am so ready to start my career and establish myself somewhere. 

I want very badly to have a rich life in all areas. 

I guess I should focus on the present and getting through this last year of school. I am sure it will fly by seeing as I am pretty busy and have a lot of things left that need to be done. By the time graduation rolls around I am sure I will not know where all the time went and wish that I had capitalized on it a but better than I have. I am ok with that because at that time I will be stepping into my new life and establishing myself somewhere to be joined by Alex shortly. That will be wonderful. That is what I truly cannot wait for. It will come. I just pray that it comes more easily then the failed attempts in the past.....

**sigh** here I am back at this place again. Fixated on what I want in the future and headed towards more moaning about withing for Alex.....that day will come. yadda yadda. I can wait. well, I don't really have another choice. 

Sorry. This took a bit of a turn I did not want it to. It happens. I just want a full life. And that cannot happen until Alex is here and I have a job as a therapist. Til then, I will (like my client's tell me) "just have to deal".

Just a Quick Flow Chart

Pain => Somatethesia => Perception => Insight => Sapience => Hope => Perseverance => Change