(seemingly) Random Thoughts (done in 10 minutes)

I adore my boyfriend, he is my all.

Summer classes are intense. I don't understand why I need to pay to take a class that does not apply to my ultimate career goals and in which I am learning nothing.

I enjoy my new apartment, but am still not used to being in it alone.

I kinda miss camp....no. no I don't.....I do, but I freaking hate the drama.

I'm not even engaged yet, and I already dread having to plan 2 weddings (one in Iowa and one in England).

I'm rather annoyed that I still do not have internet or cable in my new apartment.

I should paint more. I am better at poems but I do not have the patience to write any.

Motorcycles are way more fun to ride on than driving a car.

I don't see how firing cheese out of a cannonball would actually work as ammo.

Eclipse comes out soon. I'm going to wear my new "I don't want a hot guy. I like my men cold and pale" tshirt that Alex bought me when I see it.

Alex's hoodie barely smells like him anymore, sad.

Whitening my teeth is going to be a great idea.

People always say that you can sleep when you are dead - I like sleep a lot but can never fall sleep at night....I gotta work on that....

when I am a vampire I won't need to sleep anymore.

People are going to think I am crazy for saying that last one....but if it were possible then I'd be on board....altho I'm not obsessed with the idea.

I wanted to end with something whitty but now I am too tired.

Finish Mythbusters, then bed.

And morris time :)

Woe is Me

I need to get out of this funk. I don't know what my deal has been lately. No matter what I do, I seem to fall be either sad, moody, or a combination of the two. When Alex is here, I am wonderful. When he goes, I am awful. I think that is part of the key. I am struggling to cope with him being away and yet so close. I am very used to having him be away from me and it usually only takes a few days for me to readjust and be back to normal. Nope. Not this time....I don't even know what else to say about it. It just sucks.

lines from poety that grabbed me

The wearied light is dying down, And earth, and stars, and sea, and sky Are redolent of sleep, as I Am redolent of thee and thine Enthralling love, my Adeline.

An angel throng, bewinged, bedight In veils, and drowned in tears, Sit in a theatre, to see A play of hopes and fears, While the orchestra breathes fitfully The music of the spheres.

For her this rhyme is penned

You buy my spirit with those shameless eyes, That burn my soul, you loose the torrent stream, Of my desire, you make my lips your prize

When scattered glow-worms, but in twilight fine,Shew trivial beauties watch their hour to shine

They had given him back to her, but not to keep


Hearts remote, yet not asunder; Distance, and no space was seen

So amorous are these that I deem they will slay me

If certain when this life was out That yours and mine
should be, I'd toss life yonder like a rind And taste eternity.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)